I don't dare speculate, but I think I was blocked from seeing things that would make me upset. Last year was a doozy, not just from the collective, but because of stuff happening with my family. I was very close to the breaking point, if you get my drift.
I do think now that my dream with my dad was some way of letting me know that slowly things are being restored, or reorganized, in a way that will make sense. But it's just a hunch for now.