GRATITUDE LIST

[buttercup]

-feeling uplifted since letting A friend out of my life
-realizing after getting fired i need to stop lowballing myself with how much i'm getting paid and that i spent too much on transportation
-going to visit my feral cats
-taking b cat to the vet
-b cat and p cat doing so well at the vet. they were like perfect angels. So well behaved. didnt fuss or whine or squirm. Just let the nurse do their thing and sat there the whole time. It was amazing. No one would believe they ever cause trouble. It was like they were given weed or chill pills. It made me feel like a very proud cat mom.
-that B cat was pretty healthy and the visit went well and deciding to do the xray
-accomplishing some of my new year's goals already
-M getting back to me about the cats and the heat
-getting my tear trough filler finally which made me feel good
-manifesting an amazing deal on my tear trough filler which by the time i paid made it about half the price as a random surprise and my injector said i'm family
-my four leaf clover stone and the good luck it brings me
-prayer
-getting a big check the other week
-getting a random extra the next week which a nice extra manifestation
-having a caring heart
-deciding to go back to brunette
-after going no contact, after 6 days J contacting me like nothing and having a normal conversation with me sunday and asking if i'd be home later, which it seemed to be to fix things
-sweaters
-beautiful photos of myself from the days of my first career
-confirming a photo shoot and feeling ready to do it and like it'd be good for me
-ordering a 3rd lamp after not being able to put together the first 2 and getting refunded for them and this one will be a charm because it's already installed and is cool tube light, glow stick style. It costs more but it'll be worth and has a cool art gallery style look
-browsing the chanel store to look at wallets recently
-working on my new year's resolutions and reflecting on the last year
-after asking the universe for another sign, manifesting about 2 days later going through my email and understanding what my lawyer had sent me. It was indeed a paper to sign that means me staying at my apartment. Because of my recent circumstances it made the most sense now. Something keeps me tied here connecting to J longer as if i need to solidify more before i can move. It's strange but then after last night, it's confusing. Maybe it's all playing out the way it's supposed to though and this thing that happened last night is part of it. Hopefully it brings us closer because right now i'm hurt, and scared.
-baby wipes
-ordering a food puzzle for my cat after a suggestion from the vet
-that at least with the the new option of staying here i won't have to rely on my ex's help
-how hard my lawyer has been working for me
-makeup
-my dior balm tint in ultra pink
-sleep
-updating my resume last night
-cleaning the house last night
-doing ok at applying to jobs the last few days trying to find a new career or even get something in my current field
-ordering a new going out dress recently
-my cica sleeping mask
-my fresh sleeping scrub
-yoga
-my body looking a little slimmer the last few days
-watching a few movies on starz and hbo the last week or so
-my friend getting the gift i got him
-fashion
-getting a shade up on the other window
-showering
-M sending me money
-people thinking i have a baby face
-listing more items on poshmark
-posting more pics on instagram
-reassurances