Re: Weird 'memories'? Realization or random thoughts?
Originally Posted by
Psychonaut1984
According to these alleged memories, I was not totally happy in my previous life for some reason, I was so done with being human I did not want to be reincarnated
Me, too. Thought I know now that I didn't actually have to come back. I thought that I had to in order to settle some things, but now I understand that I was just caught up in the illusion of the material universe.
I don't believe that anyone or anything "makes" us incarnate. We choose to do it, though we may not understand that we do. We may think we're obligated or that we're required or we may create authorities who tell us we have to, etc. But, in the end, it's all about free will... But I digress.
Originally Posted by
Psychonaut1984
I purposely made it a point to set this life up so that it would force me to evolve a little bit more spiritually and so I wouldn't have to spend as many future lifetimes on earth. As a result I had to choose a "higher difficulty level."
Me, too.
Originally Posted by
Psychonaut1984
Being gay was one option
I did that last time. It wasn't a happy life, nor did it have a happy ending. I'm still having flashes of memory from that life, for reasons that I have yet to fully comprehend.
This time I came to immature, dysfunctional, abusive parents (I thought I had a karmic score to settle with my mother).
Originally Posted by
Psychonaut1984
They said that my best bet was to become a spiritual person if I wanted to progress faster, and that by choosing this particular set of obstacles, if I did not learn my lesson, I could potentially screw up what I worked for, via suicide or getting too seduced by the dark and fall into a lowered vibrational state, and as a result have to repeat a similar life afterwards for as many lifetimes until I learned my lesson.
A piece of advice regarding lower vibrational states (from experience). Don't give in to fear and worry. It lowers your vibration like nothing else.
Originally Posted by
Psychonaut1984
the being/s informed me that anything is possible, but warned that there would be consequences if a person misused them.
Yes. Be careful what you wish for. You might get it.
Originally Posted by
Psychonaut1984
As I am writing this, its just sends chills down my spine.
Mine, too. It resonates as being your truth, or near enough to it (I say near enough because we always filter things and symbolise them and so forth, so it's kind of mutable.)
Originally Posted by
Psychonaut1984
Lately I have been feeling this intense sense of urgency with the need to make some kind of drastic change in my life, in particularly possibly giving up everything for my spiritual life in order make sure that I end up where I am supposed to be.
Okay. If this is your calling, you need to consider it seriously. What do you mean by "everything"? Job? Home? Meat (or other foods)? Consider this carefully and break it down into smaller portions and meditate on each one separately, and see what you come up with. You don't have to rush. Time is an illusion.
Originally Posted by
Psychonaut1984
I feel like a crazy person saying talking about this stuff, could this be for real or am I just loosing my mind?
Well, you could be, but I doubt it. You sound (and feel, empathically) pretty rational. I really don't sense any madness, if that's any comfort to you.
I have a figurine of a dragon. It's quite puppy-like, with big eyes and a cute little face. It has its tail in its mouth and it's looking up with huge eyes like, "Ha! I got it!" The name of the figure is "Tailchaser". I got it because it reminded me of myself, when I would go round and round and round with the "is this real? am I just crazy? how can this be?" thing.
From experience I can say, don't chase your own tail. Sit down and be still and listen, and you'll understand, but chasing your own tail absolutely helps nothing. It just wears you out and makes you feel silly.
Originally Posted by
Psychonaut1984
Has anyone felt like this before?
Millions of people have, since the dawn of humanity.
Originally Posted by
Psychonaut1984
I just ordered the book 'Initiation into Hermetics: A Practice of Maigic,' I feel like this might be the next step?
Perhaps it is, for you. Read the book and find out. And keep at the attempts to communicate with your Higher Self, it seems you're making good progress there.
I just have the impression that you're second-guessing yourself all over the place. Really, you should stop that. Honest questioning of beliefs and thought patterns is good, but I get the impression you're just driving yourself mad with it. Stop. Just be. You'll feel better, and when you feel better, you'll be in a better position to receive clarity and answers.
Sending you my sincere blessing and love.
May the light surround you, may you be blessed. May the light surround us, may we be blessed. May love and light surround us all, and may we all be healed and blessed. And so it is, and so it shall be, now and ever after.
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