It seems as if part of my mind is having a rather difficult time accepting the fact that imagination is the foundation for reality.
On two occasions I've had amazing experiences with removing blockages and feeling a new body instantly..
The first experience happened after I had a fight with my dad and left the house. As I was walking to the car I thought to myself how crazy he was, then I heard from my mother that he had tried to kill himself a few nights ago. Astounded and dumbfounded I left the house assured that I was right and my father was insane.
I hadn't been doing a lot of energy work at this time but I was into healing and illusion and quantum physics. So I drove to a park to get some alone time. Turned on some music (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MGQjyGT1-mc) and just sat there trying to calm my mind. Suddenly I was intensely in the moment as my vision zoned out. I felt connected to everything and decided to ask god to help me out. I instantly stood up and took off my shoes. I stood in the ground and just forced a load of energy straight into the core of the planet. I could feel the surge through my legs, and I felt lighter. I felt like the entire world had opened up to me and a cloud of negativity that had plagued me for months was gone. I got into the car and drove away ecstatic. As I was nearing the exit of the park I noticed a huge black hole in the sky, and it shocked the hell out of me. It was there for about ten seconds then disappeared and I have no idea what it was.
My second experience involved breath work. One night after doing breath work for an hour I felt like I was about to fly out of my body. At this point I decided to talk to "god". I asked it what to do and I immediately stood up and started ripping stuck energy out of my body and throwing it away. I felt my astral hands dive into my inner body and rip away toxic. Afterwards I felt ten pounds lighter.
My problem is that in my daily existence it is extremely hard for me to override my rational mind when I feel ♥♥♥♥ty and overwhelmed with the minds point of view and negativity.
Does anyone have any advice on learning to convince my mind the simplicity of intention and the effectiveness of imagination. It feels like a struggle to ground energy these days. Could I possibly be dealing with psychic attack?
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