Last night was strange...I was to movie and was sitting on the first row I did not notice what movie it was, suddenly I stand up and said...I must go out...I went to fetch a magazin and now I become somehow aware and did not leave the movie theatre but did sat me down on the back row....this did repete one more exatly as the first time (thought come to me..it is training for the afterlife awakening??))...after this realisation I went to the movie hall, I noticed there was a maschine for snacks and besides that was a cupbord with glas free chockolate......I did not dare to take, but I was happy.

Now suddenly I feel that I am in my bed and someone is trying to draw me out with him, I awakes in the dream to my own shouting, and my bf askes what is the matter, I said I had a nightmare, he asked what was it and I told him that someone tried
to take me away, oh my little one he said...and I put my mouth against his and felt at once peace and did fall to sleep again, I noticed though that the mouth of my bf did change but it did not scare me now...( I asked my bf on the morning if he remembers this, he said no, so I must have dreamt this)...In this nightmare part was also small bugg´s crawling on my tummy...and I was freakened out, and bruched it away...when I looked at my tummy it was totally in blood, but next time I looked it was normal?? (Thought come to me...I have stomach cancer??)

This is not a dream...yesterday at one time when I was meditating the ET did appear again,(I call it ET because it has eyes very apart from eachothers....very vide range between eyes and the head is enourmus).. for many many years ago I was scared to death and I asked ET not to show his/her appearance to me because it scares me, I feel it´s love and caring energies and it is okay to be around me, but now it showed again, and now it is okay...I am very greatful for the support it gave me, I have now dared to become totally my self even in anger and I now know I do not kill anyone when showing my "anger" ....I feel safe in my self now...I wonder if this ET is my higher self??

June 19 is the date what I am afraid it will be something happens, so I say it now...then it has gone 87 days.