Nursing babies

[susan]

Another class room dream again with a test coming up.
Dream.
I'm in my dressing gown going into a classroom with two presents under my arm. I'm not due until later for the test but some people are coming in now for theirs. I leave the presents in the corner for later when I return as the teacher comes in. I remind her as I leave that I'm not due until this afternoon . She knows. She tells me that Susan ( I visualise a girl I used to work with in physical who had the same name as me) has been excused and won't be in because she has been under some stress recently.
As I looked at her to speak my eyes were hurting as if looking straight up at full sun. They were uncomfortable and I took off my sunglasses to rub them ( wasn't aware in the dream prior to this that I had any on)but couldn't look straight at her, the glare of the sun was too strong.I apologised for not being able to look at her.
Woke up instantly.

So dreams I know can just be what is on your mind.
I've had the classroom dream before and a test coming up and did indeed experience an OBE that left me working out the sequence of events and putting them into some kind of order that had me conclude this may have been a retrieval .( 25th Sept page 33)
What stays with me here is the warmth ( once again) from the teacher. I felt she would not judge me if I failed the test and she would understand. Very loving. Also the corridor outside entering the door on the left.

When the mind is troubled I feel we can have so much confusion in our dreams that it is easy to dismiss as just a dream.
For me I've discovered it is to my benefit to take note of a lot I pick up when in an okay frame of mind.
So why didn't I? The other morning when I heard a message . Because I didn't want to hear it so I decided it must be just chatter picked up , nothing to do with me.
1) early am went back into a light sleep after thinking about tax return I was about to do and how much I had put away to pay the Inland Revenue. I had calculated how much was needed and everything fine. Thought about going out next day to buy something I've been saving up for .Woke up to .. But your going to be short.... This didn't make sense so dismissed.
2 days later filed return on line. The ************ wanted more than I had expected, £1,500 more than expected.
Apparantly because my due amount was above a certain figure they now require 6 months in advance also and more in July.����

2) I interpreted a dream about my son which I thought he would like to hear , especially with problems at the moment. It was welcome news. Woke up to ... It was never meant as that... In time the hope I gave him was unfounded. I can see now how easy it is to interpret something but take the meaning you want to put on it. When I later felt I could now understand the meaning and where I went wrong, was thinking this out before going to sleep I woke up to .......a thought...inspirational..
so once again just Love the contact, even if it is me, I'm not alone , I'm talking to me, helping me, or someone is.

[susan]

Wow I think I've just had the test experiencing dual awareness, I became the person I was watching. I thought I may have a little while to go before anything and I had hoped it would involve me consciously leaving body to experience but this was recalled as a dream but left me with the wow feeling.

Dream.
I'm standing in a small room( classroom) with 5-6 other people, in a circle. We are all holding a small white paper bag.
A teacher is around the circle also and asks for a volunteer to do something. She tells us she has a friend who is trying to work out why a little girl is behaving in the way she does. As she asks again I decide to volunteer. I cannt remember what instructions were given out but was aware of holding the opened bag in front of my face and just staring into the bag. Someone comments that I'm still here. It's at that comment that my surroundings dissolve slowly and now I can see clearly that I'm in a similar room with a man sitting in a chair, but at this stage I could also still see the people who had been with me in the room and I just knew I was having dual awareness. I was aware I was in two different localities at the same time. By now the others have dissolved and I'm fully aware of standing looking at a man approx 30ish sitting with his legs crossed and a clip board in his hand. Across from where I am I see a little girl sitting on a small child plastic chair with a lot of toys on the floor around her. He's talking to her and now gets up to go towards her.
( this is the bit that excites me when I recall)

I'm now sitting on this child's chair and this massive man comes towards me. His head is nearly touching the ceiling. His arms are so long and he's waving them around. He's holding something in his hand and I think he's going to hit me . I have to stop him. The toys,
I've got to throw the toys at him to stop him coming to hurt me.I throw them in front of him.He's angry.

Next I'm back at the other side of the room watching this man who had got out of his chair and walk towards the little girl who has just thrown all her toys around the room. He asks why she is doing this. His arms go up in a gesture of disbelief. She throws more and runs towards my side of the room.

He leaves the room and a few people come over to me . By now I'm lying on the floor ( me, not the child) I think they were the teacher and friends. She throws a blanket over me and tells me to go to sleep now.
I wake up to seeing the word....AISTO... Written in blocks in black and white. The A was half black and half white.

Thoughts.
I've read of authors becoming someone else briefly, feeling and being that person if only for a short period. They mostly believed this was experiencing an event in a past life, having viewed the person first then becoming.
This was a modern plastic child's chair and toys and the man looked normal dress, so this was not going back in the past.
However, I became this little girl. I was thinking her thoughts. I perceived the man as a threat and was frightened of him. As a small child he seemed enormous. I also flitted back to being aware of watching this all take place as me.
I don't believe this was a real encounter with a past life but an experiment, test, learning skill, whatever, to see if I could get into this child's mind and perceive as she was experiencing.
I'm not sure what use it could be but just love this one.
Need to do some homework on this . Any thoughts welcome.
Also AISTO... Sounds a bit like AKEO....but never heard of it before. Bit of reading and googling required.


Edit 01/10/16
This later transpired to be encouragement for a difficult situation that was to enfold in my physical life involving my son and his girlfriend. I was to understand her feelings and understand her reactions by putting my self in her shoes. Only by seeing from her perspective could I understand, therefore be a mediator between the two.
This helped me enormously and in turn helped them. Without this way of thinking I would automatically have taken my sons side and there would have been much bitterness, sadness, grief for years to come .

[IA56]

Hi Susan,

Would it be different or make a difference if you see it this way....A is to.....??

Love
ia

[susan]

Hi IA, I've just quickly deleted a reply to you. I completely misunderstood what you were asking, so I'll start again.
Interesting way to look at it and it can be very relevant to how recently I've been trying to understand how my sons girlfriend is feeling about a situation and at the same time how he is feeling. I've been realy trying here and have I think done an okay job. His replies to me have been that what I write to him is exactly how he is feeling just now.
Maybe I should be trying to develop this with everyone and everything. Kurt talks of merging with what he was looking at and becoming that fly or blade of grass. This is a skill of one of the senses he talked of. Need to get the book out again.
I think I need to find time to balance reading on both the buddah writings on compassion and kurt who tells us how to develop this skill. The feeling, understanding, and then the being.
Thank you my friend. Sometimes something can be staring me in the face and I just don't see it.

[IA56]

Hi IA, no difference at all. The experience is what I'm left interested in. The name means nothing to me, and I can only come up with a few people with this as a surname. It's noted , not forgotten but noted.

Okay Susan,
It does not Always have to be a name, it can be a Word too....like Another to it.....or Always to it.....away to it....to like underline something......
I am happy that you did have a dual expereince.....high 5

Love
ia

[IA56]

Hi IA, I've just quickly deleted a reply to you. I completely misunderstood what you were asking, so I'll start again.
Interesting way to look at it and it can be very relevant to how recently I've been trying to understand how my sons girlfriend is feeling about a situation and at the same time how he is feeling. I've been realy trying here and have I think done an okay job. His replies to me have been that what I write to him is exactly how he is feeling just now.
Maybe I should be trying to develop this with everyone and everything. Kurt talks of merging with what he was looking at and becoming that fly or blade of grass. This is a skill of one of the senses he talked of. Need to get the book out again.
I think I need to find time to balance reading on both the buddah writings on compassion and kurt who tells us how to develop this skill. The feeling, understanding, and then the being.
Thank you my friend. Sometimes something can be staring me in the face and I just don't see it.

Yes, we have to become all and Everything, then we understand it, when able to see it from all prespectives

Love
ia

[susan]

Hi again IA, you read my deleted post before I realised what you meant. I hope the above reply explains I am now seeing what you mean.

[susan]

Don't understand why I dreamt this but I woke up instantly from it with a lump in my throat.

Dream,
I'm lying on a wide road sunbathing when a double decker bus comes nearer. A child runs out into its way and I quickly warn the driver about the child. He misses it and gives me a wave in thanks then does a 360 degree circle with the bus very fast.
I notice that the bus is so packed full with people that they are almost hanging out of the window with suitcases going on holiday and very happy. Then in horror he's gone too fast and the bus topples onto its side. This is horrible, worst thing to happen.
People running over to help so immediately I'm in emergency mode. I run up steps to an office to ring 999.a man is on the phone just smiling at me . He couldn't have been calling for an ambulance because he wouldn't be smiling. I keep repeating 999 ambulance. As I'm using the phone I'm thinking of the blankets in the bedroom next door. I'll take them outside . They'll need them.
Woke up with a lump in my throat.
Dissapointed because I was in the middle of about to help people/ relieved because it had only been a dream.

Was this because only yesterday did a bit of reading and kurt talks of the best way to progress with experience in the spirit world is to request to be of help. So I sent a request out but the thing is I know this already and I've already made this clear.
Am I going in circles here?
Written before of never liked to ride upstairs on a bus as a child incase it tipped over. ( a fear?)
Was this trying to wake me up in a dream to become lucid?
Well it's logged anyway.

Edit.
A few months later this seemed to be linked to the massacre of tourists on holiday in Tunisia where we were booked up to visit

Tourists ...holiday...someone trusted suddenly does something ......a fear ( bus toppling over)The feeling that this was the worst thing imaginable.

[susan]

A beautiful coloured dream early am.
I was dreaming that I was dreaming lying in bed and my astral body sat up to view pictures that were appearing on the wall.
One was pastel colouring,energy colours with a sky and sea blending into each other with a woman and I think a younger daughter at the side of her just looking ahead. There was slight movement it wasn't a picture. In the dream I seem to be aware that I'm dreaming this. Then I saw a completely different scene with bold colours as in physical. This was like , well, kind of pre historic . I cann't remember much about it but was trying to understand in the dream what this was.
Later after wakening up did some energy raising when third eye opened. Was aware of lying in bed watching this. Got a bit excited .
It stayed black and white like an old film but was a man on the left brushing his teeth with a lot of toothpaste in the mouth. It ended.
Well, I always get excited when anything comes in the brow but this was a disappointment. Maybe just something passing through my vision/ perception space.
But I loved the first one.

Need to add something that was picked up after the dream that I was dreaming.
Picked up .. "What's happened to Paul Burrell these days? "( then there was a pause, then) something about "she's the queen's????"

I forgot who Paul Burrell is/was so have just googled him.
He was the queens footman before working for princess Di. ( I'm a podiatrist even though obviously different, as a joke I have been called the foot woman before.)
The queen has been mentioned a few times over the last two years of this journal

[susan]

Just followed a link on a website that took me to Robert Petersons book . I recognised it. It's in my cupboard. I read just now on Internet about a section on inner voice and he describes how he first encountered his inner voice and how it spoke back to him and mostly was more a voice than an inner thought. Was able to ask questions and get answers.
The humour shown, the advice given, advising the advice would always be there for him to help him but the choice will always be his but the advice will not come through when it involves an important part of his lessons. The voice said that it was part of him, trying to help him through this life. . He writes that he then came to the conclusion that it was his higher self helping him.

This has helped me to understand why I get more than just thoughts and do actually hear the words. It could come across as a best friend you can confide in. In fact that is how I see it because it only has my best interest at heart. A best friend.
Even Kurt wrote of starting his journey as a youth on a ouija board and made contact who later channeled through him. He had a name given . This was just for communication. He later decided it was his higher self. It is thought that Jane Roberts who channeled Seth may have been channeling her higher self but once again a name had been given. We live by names, we need a name.its easier to have a name.
I am so pleased to read of Robert Peterson's description of his ' inner voice ' conversations.
This has taken away any doubt and reservation I would have on writing about this same inner voice. Some people say that it isn't a voice , just a thought , but that is not always so. It can be a voice. Through the day then maybe just a thought but in silence with no distractions this can be a voice.
I remember a few years ago when I read this book I wasn't impressed. In fact I don't think I finished it . I remember reading this section with him having a conversation with his inner voice and it seemed too much in the imagination to me.
How wrong was I? Maybe I just wasn't ready to understand at that time.
I have a best friend.
Just to note for journal I actualy came here to record OBE this am but no sight. Seemed to last about a minute just movement. Left from my left leg first then the rest of body followed. Upwards , forwards but just blackness. Waited for vision but nothing came. Tried to focus on my eyes, stupid I know, that was it finished.
Don't know why because I've been doing brow work as well as the rest.