I guess what I think I'm seeing is that having a crappy childhood can make you a mystic. But I'm not sure that's the case. It's certainly not always the case (usually, it just messes you up for life). I have never seen much purpose for the suffering I endured from before I was born (please, no dogma about "choosing it before I was born", I've been down that road and found it to be unsatisying and mostly irrelevant, though I know it works for some people, as dogma generally does), and I have resented it most of my life. I've come to peace with it now, for the most part, because it just was what it was and it's part of the back story for this "me" creation, and that's fine. It's just lately I'm seeing that maybe there was something more to it (though I'm not at all convinced that there's any great "plan" or "scheme" or anything, and I most definitely do not ascribe to the idea of predestination).

I dunno. Maybe it's just that a lot of people have a dysfunctional childhood, and therefore lots of people here do. I might be grasping at straws to try to find some meaning in that which is meaningless.