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Thanks. I just don't know what I was thinking - I was having some hallucination of being a wandering traveller like kung fu or something. I had this bizzare illogical plan from films and comics of living rough. I mean I've never really written about it. Its helping me to write it out.
When being Child and Young adult the brain is not yet developed and it needs very wise parents to guide through this delicat and difficult period to become an secure and wise adult. To have parents with own issues who Project them unto theires Children is a bad combo....I can understand why you needed horror films to boost your inner with as an counteraction against your parents who was lost into the religion in wrong way, instead of becomming secure and safe they did see Everything as an threat (you) who was different than theires standards...you did only try to balance the unbalansed energy at your home. I do not know if you understand how I mean?? But this is how I see it, because it was just like this in my Life...between me and my son...but I did not forbid him anything so because he needed it at that time...the unbalance I created with my "religion" at that time, even it was not as my son thought it was, this did come clearer after like 10 yrs after....as he been teen and then Young adult...he did see and me too what the unbalance was about, much about an misunderstanding on both parts.....maybe you see it to be in your case too?? between you and your mother?? It should bean the adult to understand this and not to make you feel it is something wrong with you. YOur mother had all right to forbid you to see that kind of Movies, and she should have done it calmly and tell you that you do not have the age to see this kind of Movies..you have to wait until you are like 16 or 18 ....right??

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