Hi Antares.

I need to know how your social life is...are you very much alone...like go to work and go back home...??

If you are much alone...then the negative energies have let you know some of the "truth" but twisted it for their benefit...to keep you in place and get further into the despair...
and really think that there is no way out...

I want you look at that they have at least 3 times led you astray and you lost very much both money and strength and sleep. So stop believing in what they have fed you with...start fresch...take care of your need...sleep...rest...eat healthy...exercise both physical and mental...start build up your inner life...have good laughs...good talk with your peers etc..

Stop obsessing what you have "discovered" it is sure manipulated.

Love
ia