Sinera's Lucidiary

[Sinera]

08/Oct/2011
The Affirmation

This night I first get vibrations once and try a roll-out but I fail and notice that I 'rolled myself awake'. This first failed attempt maybe attracts my helpers again. After an hour or so in sleep again I get into trance and manage to do multiple exits with helpers again hauling me out one time after another (maybe 3-5), mostly grabbing me - as usual - by my hands and arms.

The whole time, however, I experience exit blindness again. Anyway, mindsight or willing imagination tells me I seem to be in "Portal Alpha" (childhood room) again. "Portal Beta" is what I now came to call the "Tom Campbell Suit(e)" (... mind the nice wordplay ) from which I accessed the HCZ then ("Human Contact Zone" see post 04/Sept/2011).

Despite lack of vision (again ) I am otherwise very lucid as the presence of mind regarding my set goals shows. After the first was accomplished (while the helpers, one to the left, one to the right were still holding me) with doing a kind of intended Law-Of-Attraction-Affirmation for my physical life, I tried two other ones: To reach the HCZ again (via Portal Beta), which does not work. Then I try to get vision doing affirmations: No success either. After another return and exit I still see a darkened room but I detect the hazy shades of the window of Portal Alpha where I usually exited into "the Astral". I try fly towards it in order to get out but am slowing down and before I make it I get back to body / awake again.

One image is transmitted to me in-between: My own eyeglasses dangling from what seems to be an outside telephone or power/utility pole. They are rendered in over-size because they are almost as big as the entire huge telephone pole.

Comments / Afterthoughts

The eyeglasses may refer to the missing visuals again. If it was a telephone pole it might also refer to communication. In case it was an electricity pylon - well, I don't know, maybe the same.

It is of course a bit frustrating to still experience blindness and not even gaining it after my affirmation-attempts (which worked well on other occasions before). No progress made this time, same old drag, I'm almost a bit bored now with exit blindness and the whole bag of being-hauled-out-into-the-dark-room-experiences.

Well, okay ... on the other hand I spoke the LoA affirmation in the Astral, which is what I really wanted, so the primary goal was accomplished and it was a success in this regard. Maybe vision would even have 'distracted' me from it. Looking at it from this angle it makes even sense to 'do without' vision. Hence the picture of the 'suspended' glasses for the sake of better verbal (tele-)communication (symbolized by the pole)???

On a more philosophical side note: Reading all this again, I still need to remind myself sometimes of how unusual my experiences are. 99+% of the "normal" population would be shocked or disturbed and think they were going completely nuts now when they experienced entities dragging them out of body at night. Or probably they would think that I am nuts when I told them about this and told them that I even 'ask for it' since it is a cooperative thing.
Hence it is interesting to note how life perspectives and the notion of 'normality' change when you deal with metaphysics 'actively' by routine practice. Moreover, there is a sweet irony in it (as you might already know that I always try to find a humorous note in my experiences) when I judge this episode now even as 'boring' while the majority of the population would be scared to death by it.

(ps: regarding the post before this one: I met Andy again in a dream, we were together on a congress with lectures etc. (possibly about health topics) and then went as a recreational activity with some other guys into a gymn to play basketball.)