Nursing babies

[IA56]

AI56, I love what you give out, you have so much goodness in you and love to give . I will take on board everything you have said.
I do feel a little humble though because at my stage in life I feel I have everything. AND I DO. Lovely sports car, money, job I love ( bringing in so much connection with a loving older generation ) ,loving family. What more can you ask for ( maybe a little more energy) The Only wish I could make is to know what more I can do? Physically I can't, but whilst sleeping can I do more?
I sent out a wish a while ago that if I was able to be aware when in astral could I do some kind of work in the astral, maybe soul retrievals. But I had a very vivid dream shortly afterwards suggesting there wasn't enough time. Did I understand?
Now my interpretation was that maybe this just isn't in my Contract?
So I will plod on hoping to have memorable experiences and contact but this mustn't be just about what a great experience I am having in astral.
Journal.
This am.
Woke up 4 am.Had gone to bed early so felt like raising energy. Working on feet, moving up to knees then first chakra.
Decided to bounce balls through third eye for a bit, then bounce energy balls from crown straight down to base chakra.got a little bored so moved onto my side,carried on with feet circles when from feeling the vibration in feet it turned to numb so was aware I was getting lighter. Decided to work on the hands this time which is very unusual for me when shortly after my astral hands seemed to raise up and I imagined a piece of carpet( ????) being held between my two hands and somebody is pulling this carpet upwards.
( on reflection this is very similar to the rope technique) just my own way of doing it.
I now know I am about 2 feet above body so decided to concentrate on brow area .
Then it came , hypnopompics, Entertaining.
Swirling of cloud looking faces, then black and white faces .
, then what looked liked like superman flying upside down over a city. This was amusing to watch but I knew this was nothing to remember, just purely hypnopompics. Amusing to watch but woke up.
I'm just feeling a little on hold .
. I want to do something in astral but recently it has all been about ME.
I want to DO something worthwhile.

Hi Susan, I am not sure you mean me when you write AI56 but I assume it is me you mean
That there is not enough time is crusial for you to feel how it felt when it was said...but if you ask me how it lands in me your word´s about this...I feel that that can mean few things or several....maybe not enough time because this incarnation lesson did not be planned in to have this side of your evolution....or that there are other things what is more important to you...but it is noted to futher evolution in you.....or that to be able to execute soul retrivals is to have total awareness and contact to your HS and that is not done yet in you..or to become awware what was planned and not to try to escape the plan....etc etc...
If I had to give any advice for you it would be to start to think what old knowledge you should study...gnostic and kabbalah is the oldest doctrines...but every religion or esoteric knowledge do have as a core from gnosticism and are good markor or out pointer for how to work to get the soul to grow and develop....you know the classic...10 comandments....7 sinds and 7 virutes...etc...etc....
Those are us given as a help to know about how to become human and help the intelectual animal in us to transform.
I´d like to add also...that to develop to the HS level...is to see how all is connected..and why the thing´s are as they are...then you no longer see suffering something horroble but as it is...and why it has to be like this....and that we all have caused it ...what you sow you reap...so to know when you have good contact to your HS is to start to see things as they are and not suffer or feel devestated...that you can be in the storm´s eye so to speak and have your peace and see why and for what it has to be as it is you are facing or looking at.
I know this but I can not live it.....yet....I am working hard on to get there.

Love
ia